Worries

Hi guys!! I’m back!!

It’s the Lunar New Year now, so happy cny to y'all! You Singaporeans reading this might be confused as to why I’m having any worries. I don’t think I’ve mentioned this information anywhere, but I am going to a polytechnic to further my studies after secondary school. It’s already February and school starts in April, which means that school is starting soon. And this is why I have worries.

I am worried about making new friends;

I am worried about not doing well;

I am worried about the environment.

I am basically worrying about everything there is to poly life.


Friends

First off, I would like to say that I’ve been so very blessed to have great friends who are also my good influences. I’ve never been under any peer pressure to do anything I don’t want to. My friends and I just want the best for one another. And I am very grateful to have known them.

I’ve never been under any peer pressure to smoke;

I’ve never been under any peer pressure to drink;

I’ve never been under any peer pressure to skip classes.

Tbh, the only peer pressure I’ve ever been under is the pressure to study (which might sound lame, but I’m glad my friends made me study).

So, what I’m worried about now is finding the right people to befriend.

I’ve heard of stories about students in polytechnics who just aren’t the best people (I might have a blog post up about people to be aware of in polytechnics after I’ve entered my school). Since I’ve been fortunate to have great friends, I’ve never had to filter out the bad influences. Hence, I don’t know how to spot the bad company (but I think I’ll know how when I do meet such people hahaha).

When I enter my new school, I’ll have to filter out the bad company, the fake friends, and the people who won’t do their part in projects. And honestly, this scares me. I’m just not ready to meet a whole new group of people and start all over again.

Doing badly

The next thing I’m afraid of is doing badly. In polytechnics, everything is graded and included in your final result. Hence, you’ll have to work hard and do well all year round to have a good GPA score, which frightens me too.

In primary school and secondary school, only the final national examination is taken into account of which school you’re headed to in the future. Your examinations taken in school will only be looked at if you’re going to appeal to another school, or if you’re entering a school through DSA.

Apart from doing well in exams and projects, I’ll have to do well in extra classes that I’m required to take as well. I don’t know about your school, but the polytechnic I’m entering requires me to take up other classes. In those classes, there will also be projects that are accounted for in my GPA.

Ugh, I’m already so stressed out about school even before it starts.

Environment

The environment in polytechnics is very different from that of secondary schools.

The teachers don’t chase after you for homework, and they don't care if you don't make it to lectures. You’ll have to be very independent in poly. And quite frankly, I’m afraid that I won’t be an independent learner, which would lead to my downfall.

Besides this, I’ve recently learnt that the students in the school (eg. School of Engineering, School of Applied Sciences, etc etc) I’m in are judgemental. They'll look at your physical appearance, as well as how you dress. I know that some of you reading this are like “Well, don’t care about what others think about you! Do what makes you happy!” It’s easier said than done. When you know you’re going to be judged, you’ll want to dress to impress and let others have a good impression of you.

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All I can say is I’m not ready for school, and there are so many things about poly life that scare me. I guess I’ll just have to hope for the best, and prepare for the worst.

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